stream of consciousness timeline ---- on the one hand it's kind of sad that i never end up fitting in. but on the other i'm true to myself i guess. ■ Tue 11 Jan 2022 06:05:20 PM EST ---- despite getting older i still have a knee-jerk reaction against conforming to people's expectations ■ Tue 11 Jan 2022 06:04:35 PM EST ---- feeling pretty defeated today, honestly. ■ Mon Jul 2 13:18:49 EDT 2018 ---- so the world is falling apart but my particular corner is going ok i guess. ■ Sun Jun 17 11:25:06 EDT 2018 ---- kate's done traveling for research and writing her dissertation. ■ Sun Jun 17 11:24:40 EDT 2018 ---- found a small (but tenacious) group to play indie rpgs with, and a fun group of boston friends to play d&d with. ■ Sun Jun 17 11:23:57 EDT 2018 ---- band has a couple of good shows coming up, and enough material for another tape/record. ■ Sun Jun 17 11:23:38 EDT 2018 ---- this timeline has been kind of grim recently, so i should say that i'm feeling ok right now. ■ Sun Jun 17 11:23:11 EDT 2018 ---- the center cannot hold ■ Mon Jul 3 20:42:08 EDT 2017 ---- but it turns out i don't have much ability to "promote" things effectively ■ Fri May 26 10:55:55 EDT 2017 ---- we needed a record release show and no one was booking it so i booked it ■ Fri May 26 10:55:35 EDT 2017 ---- really nervous that no one's gonna show up for this show i booked ■ Fri May 26 10:55:18 EDT 2017 ---- many of my stances have softened over the years but after reading about the kid that died of head injury where frat did nothing for 12 hours, it's hard for me not to feel like frats are basically scum. ■ Fri May 5 19:06:50 EDT 2017 ---- relatedly, watching people debate freewill on twitter ■ Fri May 5 13:02:23 EDT 2017 ---- my self-imposed ban on twitter arguments is hard sometimes ■ Fri May 5 13:02:13 EDT 2017 ---- increasingly sympathizing with the 'true knowledge' http://bactra.org/reviews/cassini-division/true-knowledge.html ■ Fri May 5 10:29:26 EDT 2017 ---- as far as the US right now, i have nothing constructive to say ■ Thu May 4 17:06:38 EDT 2017 ---- i may have seen this before, but this seems like a big deal to me: http://www.cs.virginia.edu/~robins/YouAndYourResearch.html ■ Thu May 4 17:06:21 EDT 2017 ---- between mastodon and twitter maybe the real winner will be this timeline ■ Wed May 3 17:08:06 EDT 2017 ---- sometimes seem drawn to conversations where i end up failing to say anything helpful, ugh ■ Wed May 3 17:07:45 EDT 2017 ---- mandatory self-abnegation as political praxis ■ Thu Jan 28 16:01:59 EST 2016 ---- Every dictator is benevolent to someone. ■ Fri Nov 6 16:34:16 EST 2015 ---- The benevolence of a dictator is the in the eye of the oppressed. ■ Fri Nov 6 16:34:08 EST 2015 ---- the oppressive need to create a narrative around one's feelings ■ Thu Sep 10 22:09:04 EDT 2015 ---- these tweets brought to you by random haters, hubris, and will ■ Tue Aug 18 17:36:25 EDT 2015 ---- sometimes you lose your motivation -- othertimes you suddenly find it ■ Tue Aug 18 17:35:39 EDT 2015 ---- the eye of a storm which will remake the world ■ Tue Aug 18 17:35:18 EDT 2015 ---- two-factor authentication + remote maine vacation + reboot = surprisingly frustrating ■ Fri Jul 3 14:57:20 EDT 2015 ---- it's mostly positive right now. my discontent is motivation to improve. ■ Thu Jun 4 23:13:20 EDT 2015 ---- i have been trying to de-emphasize them this year -- but i'd like to leave them in a good place. ■ Thu Jun 4 23:12:56 EDT 2015 ---- recently i've had a flush of energy for improving my open-source projects ■ Thu Jun 4 23:12:43 EDT 2015 ---- sometimes i imagine just quitting "programming" and focusing on music, games, art, building things ■ Thu May 7 20:18:38 EDT 2015 ---- <deleted> ■ Wed Mar 18 19:33:25 EDT 2015 ---- in other news, cameron and i are starting a group called 'cloud of unknowing' ■ Mon Mar 16 20:43:39 EDT 2015 ---- worried that the gulf between my ambitions and capabilities is too large -- simultaneously worried it is too small ☝ ■ Mon Mar 16 20:41:09 EDT 2015 ---- ...is watching tech people shit on each other's preferences. ugh, fucking twitter. ■ Fri Mar 13 23:03:20 EDT 2015 ---- the only thing more useless than tech people shitting on each other's preferences... ■ Fri Mar 13 23:03:09 EDT 2015 ---- finding reflexive sarcasm and irony incredibly off-putting these days. ■ Thu Mar 12 13:11:55 EDT 2015 ---- in other news: hungry for mar to start playing shows ■ Wed Mar 11 16:34:56 EDT 2015 ---- intellectually i know it is important and interesting, but viscerally i'm not feeling it ■ Wed Mar 11 16:34:00 EDT 2015 ---- motivation for "programming" (versus music/games/art) is currently very low ■ Wed Mar 11 16:33:18 EDT 2015 ---- funny how hard it is to stop associating shame with ignorance ■ Tue Mar 10 15:48:04 EDT 2015 ---- Normally listening to 'Hallogallo' calms me down, but somehow this time it has inspired intense, bittersweet heartache. ■ Fri Mar 6 16:09:56 EST 2015 ---- (also, feel some self-loathing over my own role in the whole thing. ugh.) ■ Fri Jan 16 17:40:48 EST 2015 ---- i feel really guilty when i fail to quickly side with original author. ■ Fri Jan 16 17:40:25 EST 2015 ---- increasingly feeling that my RTs on twitter end up painting targets on people. ■ Fri Jan 16 17:39:37 EST 2015 ---- also, i myself am going to redouble my efforts to avoid saying (or amplifying) tweets that yell at (or demean) the reader. ■ Sun Jan 4 22:55:58 EST 2015 ---- maybe i just need to unfollow a bunch of people and not feel bad about it. ■ Sun Jan 4 22:52:50 EST 2015 ---- (e.g. lots of folks who i really respect seem to have evolved this stance/tone that i just can't really handle anymore.) ■ Sun Jan 4 22:47:26 EST 2015 ---- experiencing incredible twitter fatigue recently. ■ Sun Jan 4 22:46:20 EST 2015 ---- could be the time of year i guess? ■ Fri Oct 17 21:24:32 EDT 2014 ---- i'm not sure what it's trying to tell me, or what's different now ■ Fri Oct 17 21:24:12 EDT 2014 ---- it's a friday night, sitting at home with no plans, and i'm suddenly hit with intense physical melancholy ■ Fri Oct 17 21:15:55 EDT 2014 ---- the uncomfortable moment where you start suspecting someone has muted you on twitter but you're trying really hard not to think about it or take it personally. ■ Thu Sep 11 00:27:33 EDT 2014 ---- ugh, thinking that maybe i should stop retweeting things altogether ■ Sat Sep 6 17:16:01 EDT 2014 ---- need to stop drawing myself into conversations that aren't for me ■ Thu Aug 28 14:37:48 EDT 2014 ---- need to stop following sources of negative energy and emotional turmoil ■ Thu Aug 28 14:37:08 EDT 2014 ---- need to stop following games industry folks ■ Thu Aug 28 14:36:31 EDT 2014 ---- cosmic games ■ Tue Aug 26 16:58:13 EDT 2014 ---- so far, hindsight is the only tool i have for telling these situations apart ■ Tue Aug 26 14:13:08 EDT 2014 ---- other times the best thing is to just keep diving down, down, down... ■ Tue Aug 26 14:12:51 EDT 2014 ---- sometimes when you feel in over your head the best thing to do is come up for air ■ Tue Aug 26 14:12:39 EDT 2014 ---- had a great time playing games with old friends in philly tonight ■ Sun Aug 24 01:58:58 EDT 2014 ---- in 30 years it will be interesting to read political history about the internet ■ Fri Aug 22 16:23:21 EDT 2014 ---- video games are war to us ■ Fri Aug 22 16:22:34 EDT 2014 ---- "god rest his soul. he's gone." autopsy link ■ Mon Aug 18 01:26:01 EDT 2014 ---- mainstream responses to ferguson are making me sick ■ Mon Aug 18 01:23:55 EDT 2014 ---- "building trust" without talking about why there is no trust right now ■ Mon Aug 18 01:23:15 EDT 2014 ---- disgusting campaign of disinformation ■ Fri Aug 15 12:39:43 EDT 2014 ---- relatedly, the person i am sharing the practice space with (k) is really cool ■ Fri Aug 15 01:12:48 EDT 2014 ---- ⛧ then i get to make some noise for the first time in over a year ⛧ ■ Fri Aug 15 01:12:16 EDT 2014 ---- tomorrow i move guitars, amps, speakers, pedals, etc over there ■ Fri Aug 15 01:11:30 EDT 2014 ---- got shelves and carpet for practice space today ■ Fri Aug 15 01:11:05 EDT 2014 ---- then i remind myself that i am allowed to make mistakes and be confused ■ Mon Aug 11 17:00:18 EDT 2014 ---- some days i feel like it's a wonder i get anything working ■ Mon Aug 11 16:59:35 EDT 2014 ---- ⚠ this is only a test ⚠ ■ Mon Aug 11 01:41:04 EDT 2014 ---- the arbiters of which responses are appropriate ■ Mon Aug 11 01:08:01 EDT 2014 ---- there's some kind of rule that the "better" the language the "worse" the dependency management experience is. ■ Fri Aug 8 14:39:54 EDT 2014 ---- fucking cabal ■ Fri Aug 8 14:39:25 EDT 2014 ---- menubars whose only purpose is to remind you which program you're in ■ Fri Aug 8 13:00:42 EDT 2014 ---- well, at least that's over with ■ Thu Aug 7 20:34:18 EDT 2014 ---- (also, if really need to you can speed walk or jog to make up a late start.) ■ Tue Aug 5 08:13:22 EDT 2014 ---- nice thing about walking to the train station is that the "are you late?" curve is very smooth ■ Tue Aug 5 08:12:38 EDT 2014 ---- lldb commands explained in terms of gdb link ■ Mon Aug 4 18:12:53 EDT 2014 ---- would love to hear opinions about it (or tablets in general) ■ Mon Aug 4 14:53:06 EDT 2014 ---- thinking about getting a wacom intuos5 tablet for drawing ■ Mon Aug 4 14:52:38 EDT 2014 ---- watching startups over the last decade makes a surprisingly-compelling case for central planning ■ Mon Aug 4 14:08:31 EDT 2014 ---- "cutting edge cat facial recognition technology" youtube ■ Mon Aug 4 14:05:27 EDT 2014 ---- so excited about sortilege that i almost caved and tweeted about it (but i didn't!) ■ Mon Aug 4 01:11:40 EDT 2014 ---- announcing sortilege, a scala library for predicting the future through divination github ■ Mon Aug 4 00:28:15 EDT 2014 ---- there has been good fortune in the beginning; there may be disorder in the end ䷾ ■ Sun Aug 3 13:10:16 EDT 2014 ---- feeling inspired by the conversations i had today ☝ ■ Sat Aug 2 22:06:03 EDT 2014 ---- the list of words to avoid saying because they get you lectured at ■ Sat Aug 2 21:58:31 EDT 2014 ---- it's easiest to enjoy fp if you think of a problem as a puzzle to solve ☺ ■ Sat Aug 2 16:17:17 EDT 2014 ---- heading to hac boston -- about to jump into the deep end λ ■ Sat Aug 2 12:07:18 EDT 2014 ---- sometimes you just have to teleport your consciousness to jupiter full album ■ Sat Aug 2 00:20:28 EDT 2014 ---- not sure whether i find this whole "timeline" thing useful or creepy tbh ■ Fri Aug 1 23:50:21 EDT 2014 ---- spire 0.8.2 released! www ■ Fri Aug 1 18:32:05 EDT 2014 ---- i think most programmers have this feeling gif ■ Fri Aug 1 17:53:17 EDT 2014 ---- reminder that p-values are often not what you care about pdf ■ Fri Aug 1 17:39:39 EDT 2014 ---- "i surround myself with nothing but robots" cyborg control ■ Fri Aug 1 14:45:51 EDT 2014 ----
